Monday, May 15, 2006

Drifting...Drifting...Drifting...

Thursday nite marked the start of a long wkend and also the start of a series of furious mahjong sessions for mi...

• 6 rounds @ Yihui's house from 9+pm till 10am the following day
• 2 rounds @ AhBye's house from 12am-5am of Sat's morning
• 2 rounds @ Jun's house fr 1pm to 6pm on Sat noon
• 2 rounds finally @ Yihui's house from 7+ to 11+pm on Sat still

So it's 12 rounds of mahjong in 2days... Had a advanced Mothers' Day dinner on fri @ Sakura in Northpoint n oso BBalled on sun afternoon.. Freaking no life dude i am. Yah i know, how i wish i'm a party animal as well, @ least, i can be @ the same club as her, watch her dance n enjoy herself... Or i can be a playa n flirt around with other girls, pick up girls @ clubs... BUT nono, I'm a boring no-life freak with no looks, no talent, no charisma, no built, no figure, no future, n of cos no $$$$$... Wonder y i'm still such a narcissist to take so many disgusting self-pics n post in this frustration venting medium...

Siyi said i should find myself a new target... but it's nv easy to get over some1. SHE had proven no1 can replace some1 u truely luv, regardless of how good or bad that person may be.. Duno why i'm whining so much here. I just freaking cant get over the fact that i'm a "ke3 you3 ke3 wu2" thingy in her(at least that's the feeling i'm receiving) life. Perhaps thats her style, n i'm over sensitive yet again... In days of timeless nua-ing, i cant help but THINK TOO MUCH to the extent of hallucinating things(occurs when i'm riding too, so my pillions, pls TINK TWICE!), n even had nitemares in dreams... I'm facing this unbearable loneliness+emptiness+depression yet i've to put on my trademark smiley mask everyday... It simply SUX... I'm not such a happy go lucky guy as can be seen when i play bball. Guess i should buy a ball n go down to bball court everyday... At least i can indulge myself in playing, n cast all troublesome matters outta my mind...

• Why aint there a girl to make nice ai xin meal box n deliver it to my house as a present surprise?
• Why aint a there a girl to tell mi abt her suitors to make mi start worrying, n make sure i treat her a million times better?
• Why aint there a girl who turn to me as the only one who can cheer her up?
• Why aint there a girl who'll tell mi how important i am to her, n how much i'm being loved by her?
• Why aint there a girl who'll specially dress up for mi, have a nice hairdo, wear new accessory, just to impress mi n give compliments to her?
• Lastly, why aint there a girl who'll cling on to me, making me so touched that i'll return my love for her n live happily ever after with her???

Fairy Tales doesn't exist, especially not for some1 as lousy as me... Sorry pple, for listening to all my grumbles... I'm going for a jog now, n perhaps, bball... N the next time anyone see mi, i'll still be the same crappy, always laughing out LOUD ZG (hopefully)... ... ....

<WANG ZHENGGUO> || 5/15/2006 12:51:00 PM